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i'm alexis; i live in florida.

september 2nd.
maybe 4 more comments?
then i updateeee :D

Love is a feeling of infinite happiness.

Bitch, take responsibility for yourself because
no one's going to take responsibility for you.
-Tyra Banks

True love isn't love at first sight;
it should be love at every sight.

I'm just a butterfly with no wings
& a broken heart </3

Only those who attempt the absurd
achieve the impossible.

instead of thinking about what you're
missing, try thinking about what you
have that everyone else is missing.

color the coast with your smile:;
it's the most genuine thing i've ever seen.

and the sun lost it's job,
because you brighten my day.

and maybe, there are really days that offer answers.
maybe, in the midst of searching for
what we want to find, we discover something else.

i've learned that no matter how bad
your heart has been broken,
the world doesn't stop for your grief.

Where do you go when you're lonely?
I'll follow you <3

Looking back, I have this to regret; that too often when I loved, I did not say so.

When the remembering was done,
the forgetting could begin.

Do not apologize for the number of individuals
you told you loved; apologize for the number
of individuals you told you loved
& did not mean it at the time.

No matter what angle I look at you,
you're always perfect.

It's not that the young can't
experience true love, it's that the young
don't know how to handle true love.

If you've got friends like mine, raise your glasses. If not, raise your standards.

I die inside a little more each time you replace me.

While I'm out, should I get you a personality?

And I just wish he'd give me
the chance to love him completely.

Trust me, I know how it feels.
I know exactly how it feels to cry
in the shower so no one can hear you.
I know what it's like to wait for everyone
to be asleep so you can fall apart,
for everything to hurt so bad you
just want it all to end.
I know exactly how it feels.

I have never felt as lonely as I did
that night sitting in the back of the room,
watching her with her arms around you.

Your smile; sometimes I swear it's the only reason I'm alive.

there isn't anything about these
summer nights that won't be memorable.

at the age of 23 is this juvenile philosophy:;
"there's more to life than taking people's shit."

i've been thinking a lot about secrets.
how sometimes secrets keep people from
feeling like they belong, and sometimes
secrets make you feel like you do belong.

if you're looking for the truth, you have to shut up.
most people i know fill their days with meaningless
bullshit, small talk, and trivial diversions just to
keep the noise in their own heads down.

and sometimes, if you're lucky,
now is the first step into forever.

i want the boy, you know,
the one that sings so terribly,
it makes me love the song.

a smile gets his attention,
a laugh makes him look twice,
but true happiness gets his heart.

you may not always end up where your heading,
but you'll always end up where you're supposed to be.

be not afraid of growing slowly;
be afraid only of standing still.
++Chinese proverb.

you have all the time in the world,
so keep fighting, and never let them
say there's anything you can't do.

There is no elevator to success;
you have to take the stairs.

In order to get over something,
you have to start climbing.

I asked, "How long will you love me?"
He said, "Until you finish counting the stars."

it's such a strange need to be deprived of,
to just want love and feel happy.

walk like you own the place,
talk like you know it all,
& act like no one can make you fall.

love doesn't walk away, people do.

when sometimes,
all one requires is that perfect song,
on that perfect drive, to feel infinite.

life is a tragedy for those who feel,
and a comedy for those who think.

the hardest part about growing up
is letting go of what you were used to,
and moving on with something you're not.

i dream myself a thousand times around the world,
but i can't seem to get out of this place.

you constantly have to reinvent yourself,
take new steps, challenge yourself.

i refuse to be like you. i hate slick and pretty things,
and i have no clue what i'm talking about half the time.

i'm at a point in my life where if i were underwater,
i doubt i'd kick to come to the top.

All I want is for you to know me again;
for me to be in your life, and even if it can't
happen right now, I would just like to know
that I'm not blocked form your memory.

And one day we will die, and our ashes will fly
from the aeroplane over the sea, but for now
we are young. Let us lay in the sun and count
every beautiful thing we can see.

You said that gravity was gonna do me in.

So I was putting on more makeup than usual;
because I wanted to be the prettiest damn wreck
you have ever seen.

I miss the way it used to be.
I miss us.

This loves been warn down, like songs on a tape.

Lights.
Camera.
Heartbreak.

You've broken my heart a million times,
but for some reason I can't let go.

Nobody wants to hear this,
but sometimes the person you want the most,
is the person that you are best without.

Although I might act like it doesn't hurt,
your words cut me deeper than any knife.

I spin around & get dizzy, but every time
I look into my heart for advice,
it always points to you <3

The new coats of pain will not
reacquaint broken hearts to broken homes.

This is reality, it ain't something fake.

There's no gravity up here;
it's kind of hard to explain.
Every time I'm holding you,
it's like backwards rain.

He reached for her hand.
"I don't want to lose you."
His voice was almost in a whisper.
She could feel the tears again,
& she fought them back.
"But you don't want to keep me either, do you?"
To that, he had no response.

You wanna know why we can't be together?
Because I don't trust myself with you.

If they could love like you and me,
imagine what the world could be.

Take the time to let it go.

Because to me,
you couldn't be better.

For all life is a dream,
& dreams themselves are only dreams.

So lets be honest, babe;
it hurts, but it may be the only way.

She's broken apart & her heart is still
looking for somewhere to feel alright.

True friendship is seen through
the heart, not through the eyes.

How can nothing last forever
if I know I'll always love you?

Young & beautiful is what every
teenage girl dreams to be,
but while they're stuck on looks,
I'm stuck on you & me <3

He looked at me & my heart melted;
you can't tell me that wasn't love,
because I felt it.

A broken heart can only mend
with Jesus as your closest friend.

I'm running out of excuses to talk to you.

And I've got to apologize for pushing you away. And it might be hurting you, but I can't help myself. Each & every time you try to reach out to me, I want to give in. It's killing me inside, yet I can't stop being so stubborn.

I'm turning my radio up to the loudest it will go.
I'm turning the rest of the sounds of my life off.
I'm concentrating on you.

I just want a sign to show me that you give a shit.

You are her entire world, kid.

He's starting to
lose his biggest fan.

You can't swim in this town of shallow.

There is a difference between
knowing the path & walking the path.

Be with who makes you happy,
even if it means you're always running back.

Sometimes you have to make yourself happy,
before you make the people around you happy.
It's the sacrifice we make, but int he end it's oh so worth it.

And when you're crying on your bed,
does it make you feel alive?

As I sit here listening to that one song,
I know I should listen to the words & move on,
but I'm not sure I can let go.

Don't rush life; after all, you've got a lifetime.

Love is rolling over in the middle of the night
to kiss your loved one on the forehead,
just to make sure that it isn't a dream.

I think that we should run as fast as we can
into what we don't know. It's time to let me in
because I feel just fine.

Never say goodbye
because saying goodbye
means going away,
and going away means forgetting.

& every time the phone rings,
I breathe in slowly & pray
that it's finally you, calling to say sorry.

Take your records. Take your freedom .
Take your memories; I don't need 'em.
Take your space and take your reasons.
But you'll think of me.

Life isn't always beautiful.

All we can do is hope for the best,
& prove them all wrong.

The worst thing you can do is let your
head second guess your heart.

You're my life
& I couldnt live without you

When I'm with you I feel like that's where I belong
and honestly, thats the only place I want to be.

There's nothing more dangerous,
than a bad boy with charm.

So tell me what you want,
because I would give you everything.

Darling, I would hate to ruin this because
we both know that it's almost flawless.
But those beautiful nights don't last forever
& a beautiful world will never exist.

I'm afraid of being alone forever,
dreams not being fulfilled,
having something tragic happen,
losing someone close to me,
or just losing the sense of being alive altogether.

Self-injury is a sign of distress, not madness.
We should be congratulated on
having found a way of surviving.

And then he hits you with that one last promise & you want it to be the truth so bad. You're looking in his eyes & you're crying, saying, "He's not lying." But you know he is.

When words become useless,
hold her hand.

Beauty is not defined by the size of your jeans!

More than anything,
you deserve to be happy.
I wish I could heal these scars,
but I don't know how.

You said you'd love me until the day you die;
& as far as I know, you're still alive.
-Shakira

I started thinking today. Yeah, about him. And I smiled, & I laughed. I remembered his arms around me & the touch of his lips when he knew I was upset. I remembered all the late night talks & all the words I was so comfortable saying to him, but I would have never been able to say to anyone else. I remembered all the songs that take me back & make me smile. I remembered all the promises, the ones we both knew would be broken. I remembered all the moments he took my breath away & how he knew more about me than I thought anyone could. I remembered the games we'd play because we talked about so much I couldn't think of anything else to say. I thought about what kind of person could have thrown that all away & hurt someone that much. Going into it, I never thought it would have ended like that. After wanting someone for so long, it's supposed to be perfect, right? And everything should last forever. But I fell out of love, & when you've loved someone you just want them to be happy. Even if their happiness doesn't involve you.

There are so many other guys out there,
but you are the only one I wait for.
I wait for the moment where you take
this heart and protect it for life.

a girl's heart is an ocean full of secrets.
++Titanic.

if it looks like i'm laughing,
i'm really just asking to leave.

so go ahead and talk behind my back;
turn it all around and make this my fault.
after all, what are friends for?

i'm missing how your eyes would meet mine
at the most inconvenient times:;
how your simple smile fixed everything.

for once, i want to be the car crash;
not always just the traffic jam.

until you're broken, you don't know
what you're made of.

it's so nice sitting very still, in a room where
no one else can feel the pain that breaks my heart
each day. i'm not okay. sunlight shining through
the window lets me know that i'm still alive.

and i'm not sad, i just want to trust
someone so badly. i want something
beautiful to happen here right now.

i believe in looking reality straight in the eye
and denying it.

"let us not look back in anger or
 foward in fear, but around in awareness."

I wouldn't mind if you took my heart away.

I don't know what to do,
don't know which way to go;
don't know which way to turn.
I'm stuck between what I had & what I've got.

Believe me; I've always loved you.
And even when you loved someone else,
I kept quiet because I knew that you
deserved so much better than me </3

It's not easy to move on if you're in love,
& if it is, then I'm guessing you weren't.

You're the single-most important being to ever grace my existence ♥

the things you say prove everyone is wrong about you;
they dont know you like i do.

i never really had a certain "type" of guy
until i really got to know you .

the feelings inside her heart for you
are way more valuable than anything else.

it was different how he moved her
because when he told her goodnight
to her it still felt like hello.

everytime our eyes meet,
this feeling inside me,
its almost more than i can take.
baby, when you touch me,
i can feel how much you love me,
and it just blows me away.
i've never been this close to anyone or anything.
i can hear your thoughts,
i can see your dreams.

Words are bullets and they kill as good as any gun.

Life is like a soccer game; anything can happen.
It's simple; control the ball & reach your goal.

I miss us. I miss how we used to be.
How we used to talk, smile, laugh.
How we used to be real friends
who could trust each other with everything.
What happened to all that?

Because of you I laugh a little harder,
cry a lot less, & smile a whole lot more.

I believe everyone has more than one face.

I just can't live knowing that
she makes you smile </3

She's the type of girl that can be so hurt,
but can still look at you & smile.

Every time you swallow,
do you get a taste of
what you've become?

If you didn't want me to fall in love
with you, why did you trip me?

come on, you could change me.
you could steal me. you could turn all
the lights on, and show me the real me.
then maybe, if i'm lucky, you'll offer me
protection. you could even heal me.

sometimes love isn't firecrackers.
sometimes love just comes soflty.

second chances do come your way.
like trains, they arrive and depart regularly.
recognizing the ones that matter is the trick.

i know i say that i'm just fine,
but i hope you wonder from time to time.

don't blink, everyone's watching.
they'll think you're up to something.
they need you to be everything
they cannot be.

wherever you go, go with all your heart.

and she's the girl that looks at him just
a little bit longer, so that just maybe he'll notice,
and understand what she's trying to say.

the way you look at me keeps
tearing me apart.
i see right through you,
stop hiding behind your heart.

go ahead, take her hand.
show her that a boyfriend
is first of all her friend.

My stomach hurts because people
keep feeding me bullshit & I'm gonna
throw it all up in their faces.

You don't know where it would be better;
you just hate it where you are.

All I'm asking for is someone real; that's all.

When I got tired of running from you,
I stopped right there to catch my breath.
There your words they caught my ears.
You said, "I miss you, darling, come home."

When you forget her, remember me.

I want to break your heart,
just to see what you're made of.

Life is already complicated as it is;
you don't need people to weigh you down,
people to disappoint you.

Prove that you are who you
always thought you were,
not who they said you had to be.

There is so much that needs to be said,
but no one is willing to listen </3

One day you might feel alright again.

hoping you'll be my happy ending.

you're living in a moment you may never see again;
let your heart break some rules.

if you want to know where your heart is,
look where your mind goes when it wanders.

faith isn't faith until it's all you're holding onto.

if you've got nothing left, say,
"i don't wanna be in love, i don't wanna be in love."

sometimes you have to put your hopes
in a safe place and come back to them
another day.

You already had my heart.
All you needed to do was say hello♥

Death is not the greatest loss in life.
The greatest loss is what dies
inside us while we live.

The end of one adventure is also
the beginning of the next.
History becomes legend,
& dreams become reality.

Sure, we had our song,
but we never danced to it.

I'm not a dick,
so keep my name out of your mouth.
I'm no pussy,
so don't try to eat me out with your words.

because pretenders never sleep with a smile.
it's hard enough to wake up after a while.
and even though i say i'm feeling fine,
i'm locked up, loaded down, short a try.

so white out the memories of each
sarcastic shot you took at me, with
your hurting tones and biting melodies.

run away, run away.
and make tomorrow
harder to live than today.

i must be wishing on someone else's star,
because she seems to be getting
everything i was wishing for.

that girl was a wild child dreamer,
but she'll find herself,
cause she believes in nothing else.

even if you're on the right track
you'll get run over if you just stand there.

your smile shines across my face.
forget what i said,
you're worth the chase.

strut your stuff, and let him know that
he didn't break your heart.

Love is a deadly feeling.
It gives you passion, but jealousy.
It gives you sorrow, but happiness.
It gives you, it makes you, & it breaks you.

I just can't seem to move on;
there's something holding me back.

She adores him,
he likes someone else.
He's perfect,
she's not.
She would do anything for him to notice her,
he doesn't bother.
She'll cry every night,
he'll be thinking about someone else.
People would always ask her "Why him?"
he doesn't know.
She'll make fun of him and laugh,
but he'll pretend he cares.
She thinks there's a chance,
he wants to be just friends.
She doesn't know what to do,
he tells her everything will be okay.
She begins to hurt herself.
he'll ask, "Why?"
She'll get mad at him,
he doesn't run back to her.
She gives up;
he misses her </3

But let's take this 'good enough'
&& turn it to 'Great'

She kept herself away because
she couldn't stand the thought of
another heart breaking good bye.

That's just reality.
No, it can't always be
kisses, hugs, & beautiful words.

She screamed, "I thought you loved me."
"I do," he said, "I'm just not in love with you."

I'm messed up to the max,
just because of one boy.

You & I go together like
peanut butter and Jelly,
Rose and Jack,
Winnie the Pooh & Piglet,
Cinderella and Prince Charming.
So I am asking you to fall as hard
for me as I did for you <3

you're a falling star, you're the getaway car:;
you're the drop in the sand when i go too far.

you always deserve to be
the most important person
in somebody's life.

stop falling in love with everything that lets you down.

you hold a heart in your hand that has
never been given away before.

long around our eighteenth year,
we found two airplane tickets.
destination: the hell out of here.

sometimes you make no mistakes,
do everything right, and still lose.

it's better to give up the feeling rather than
to fight, knowing that you're the only one
fighting for anything.

sometimes i wish that we could be so much closer
than this, but i won't look up when you walk away.

take all your regrets and throw them aside.
let's hope you survive the
"you deserve better's" and blatant lies.

You & I should give it another shot.
I promise this time I won't run
unless it's to chase you <3

I thought I was over you until
I saw you dancing with her </3

The act of overlooking what's right
in front of us just leads us to loving
the person we want them to be.

And my heart, it aches.

I didn't realize how much I needed you
until you were almost gone.

did you ever wonder
if he thinks about you
if he even knows youre there
when he is the only thing on your mind

and i just want to be your hardest goodbye

should i just stop getting my hopes up
cause i mean he does like me
but he loves her

Even if you're on the right track,
you'll get run over if you just stand there.

Wherever you go, go with all your heart.

High school is the same everywhere.
There will always be that one boy that
makes you want to get up in the morning.